I just realized that this past decade, the decade of 2000, started and ended about the same; exhausted and overwhelmed. No, it wasn't all ten years of exhaustion or I don't expect I would be here today. There were some good times in between.
When the decade started I was over committed, over active and overwhelmed with all the responsibilities that I was carrying. It didn't take long before I hit the wall and burned out. I was barely able to climb the four steps into my apartment. Nor could I really think straight and remembering, well lets just say I missed a lot during that time.
Two years later a sabbatical brought the relief, direction, and refocus I needed to pull my scattered life back together.
The left overs from that time is that I don't multitask well any more and exhaustion comes more easily.
Sometimes the seasons we are in just can't be as controlled as I would like to see them. This is one of those seasons. I learned to limit my activities and say no but sometimes it seems that responsibilities grow without any say from me.
As I looked at the list of life pressures I could check off a number of them. In fact I scored over 500 points. Well over the 300 danger zone. (www.cliving.org/lifestresstestscore.htm)
So even though I have fewer number of commitments and outside activities; I still have some major responsibilities staring me in the face.
I'm reminded that 2010 is another sabbatical year. Seven years have come and gone. This however will look much different from the last sabbatical where I could release all major responsibilities. So my question is what will this sabbatical year look like?
How can I regroup my scattered focus? How do I find rest while running a house and caring for Dad? What is God's specific plan for me?
