If you read back a few posts you will see that I am conquering fears. It’s not been an easy battle as I smacked into a brick wall of anxiety over this past week. I couldn’t shake it.
Over the past month, I had a number of medical tests, most of which were heart related. Today, at last, was the final test in a series of 4 cardiology appointments, with the results to follow in 2 weeks.
I was recently challenged that having a COVID test was a lack of faith. So in that same line of reasoning are the heart tests also a lack of faith? I considered this. But I felt the Lord say that He was guiding me and that I needed to trust my decisions, something I have difficulty doing. I am very good at second guessing myself.
For me, these medical tests are weapons that I can put into my arsenal against the enemy. Anxiety and fear are my enemies. Only on a rare occasion did God tell the Israelites to go to war against their enemies without weapons. I feel God telling me to build an arsenal of weapons (physical and spiritual)… not lay them down.
Believe me, I had never considered medical tests as weapons of warfare until yesterday. It was a new perspective. Was this one effective? Yes. The COVID test was negative and anxiety tucked his tail between his legs and backed off.
And for me, I will continue to scale the walls with God’s strength and with the weapons He puts at my disposal. I am so glad God deals with us as individuals. What may be lack of faith for one person, may be a strengthening of faith for another. God’s perspective, God’s ways and thoughts are higher than ours. (Isaiah 55:9)
