Where does it come from, this extreme feeling of making a mistake or a wrong choice or decision. Of forgetting to do something, or something going haywire before an important event? What happened to leave such a deep wound? Maybe there isn’t a need to know. It been with me so long I have no idea of when it started. Childhood perhaps. Lord forgive me; for the fear and dread, for the lack of trust in you. The roots go deep.
I claim the inheritance that you have for me Jesus. Peace and calm. Not the inheritance of fear from Mom. You were peaceful and calm in the boat when the disciples panicked. I no longer want the panic and anxiety I have lived with for years and years.
Heal me Lord, Heal me.
From the book Don’t Dread by Joyce Meyers
“Faith is for right now, today. My faith today says my past can be taken care of. Right now if I have that joyful expectancy of good, my faith today can say, “God can do something about my past and cause all that has happened to even work for my good.” Then if I believe today that God can take care of my past, today I can have joy.
If, because of my mindset and emotions, I’m playing around with yesterday, thinking and worrying about things I cannot do anything about, I’m wasting today. If I’m trying to figure out everything about the future and dreading upcoming events, I’m losing today.”
